My Head Is Fucked Up

Intention of the day: Trust that higher powers will work things out the right way. Morning writing: One of the scariest things to me is blind trust. I've been burned by people so many times that trusting a human is not an easy thing for me anymore, and only give my trust to people who are worth it. However, today's lesson isn't about trusting people. It's about trusting the UNIVERSE. Trusting that there is a bigger picture. Trust that the things I need in life will find their way to me. Last night I cast a circle and did an enchantment on a ring that I am now calling my New Love Moon Ring. I am trusting that the enchantment worked and will help me find what I seek. I trust the Universe to help guide my soul mate to me. If it doesn't happen right away, I'll do the enchantment again because I trust that with the power of concentration, it will work. Because the mind is far stronger than anyone gives it credit for and I know and trust that I have magick in me. ...

Intention of the day: Continue to remember and value the yin and yang of life, the ebb and flow of the Universe, and trust that all will be well. Evening reflections: Today's lesson continues on from yesterday. It is important to not only handle life's 'contractions' but to embrace them. It is necessary and is a sign of personal growth when something to seem to be limiting or restricting my life. Being aware of these issues, and learning to handle and grow from them is the path towards expansion and greatness. Don't fear change, be excited by it! Don't let labels and expectations of others prevent you from doing what will bring you greatest joy and highest powers!! Tarot Weekly Forecast: Sunday: Page of Wands (enthusiasm, exploration, discovery, free spirit) Monday: Page of Pentacles (manifestation, financial opportunity, new job) Tuesday: XIX The Sun (fun, warmth, success, positivity, vitality) Wednesday: Ace of Wands (inspiration, power, creation, beg...

Intention of the day: Setbacks are a part of life - don't let them deter you from enlightenment. Morning writing: It's raining and peaceful today. I plan to meditate and start writing in my grimoire. Maybe I will do a full tarot spread and update my crystal grid later. It seems like a good day to be spiritual. Back to the lesson - today I am reminded that setbacks, issues, and contractions in the flow of life are going to happen. It doesn't mean it's the end of the world. If I make a mistake, pick up the pieces and continue on. If I face adversity, it's simply a challenge for me to overcome. It's the yin and yang of life. It will all even out in the end, so it is up to me to handle the problems with grace and flexibility. Tarot Reading: Speaking of adversity, I found out at work yesterday that there was an issue with my tax filing that has to get corrected now. I'm a little stressed about it so I asked my spirit guides for insight on if things were goi...

Intention of the day: Remember that reality is a construct of the human mind - I can create my own reality because if I believe it, then it can happen. Morning writing: We're in the home stretch - only 10 lessons left after today! I don't really know what my plan is to continue my morning journaling. I might mix it up a bit more and just do stream of consciousness writing... because, as the lesson today states, expanding my consciousness MIGHT even save the world. On top of my witching book, yesterday I was doing a bit of research about brain waves and how the brain works. This is because of the whole stupid laurel/yandy thing (trying to explain to my friends that yandy is a compression artifact and the your brain only hears it because you want to) but also because of an email I got about a new light therapy at Modrn Sanctuary. It mentioned that this therapy helps you achieve high Alpha and reach Theta levels. When I looked this up, I learned that our electric activity in our...

Intention of the day: Remember to keep things in perspective and don't get worked up when nothing is actually wrong in the present moment. Morning writing: How many times in the past have I gotten stressed out about something that hasn't happened, worried about something that could potentially happen, or get upset by someone who I don't even know on the internet hundreds of miles away. It seems SO silly when you think about it objectively. I think I'm most guilty for the worrying about things that haven't happened... but I do think I have some foresight. Regardless of whether that's true, it's still futile to spend negative energy and stress on something that COULD happen. I should reserve extreme negative emotions for if the undesired event actually happens, and stay FLEXIBLE, FOCUSED and FORGIVING either way. Tarot Reading: IX of Pentacles (gratitude, luxury, self sufficiency, culmination) My spirit guides seem pleased with me! I have been studying...

Intention of the day: It's okay to ask for help from your friends, family and the Universe Morning writing: The lesson stresses that it's important to ask for help. It unburdens me and relieves me of stress. And sometimes, you have an issue and you can only ask the Universe for help. In those cases, it's vital to trust and let the Universe work on the issue. Don't go back and forth, trying to handle it yourself, then leave it to Universe, then take it back again... Trust. Just trust and faith. I wanted share what happened to me yesterday. I pulled that Page of Pentacles and wondered if one of the odd jobs I had reached out to would come to fruition. Not exactly. What did happen was the Ex texted me that his job was looking for someone to do some design work! I told him I was interested, and it was pouring rain so I figured I'd ask if he could pick me up at the train... and he did! We talked, we do enjoy catching up with each other I think. It's really a sham...

Intention of the day: All you need is love - share it and spread it as much as you can. Morning writing: I did a meditation this morning and attempted to share my love with the world, like the lesson describes... but my cat interrupted. I'll have to try again later. I don't love how this seems like a reiteration of yesterday's lesson, but I do love that these lessons at the end of the book are very uplifting. I believe that if I focus my energy and light on the love that I have for others, and then use that light to connect to less-loved groups that are spreading negative energy, maybe it will make a difference. I want to learn to help my light reach across far distances! Tarot Reading: Page of Pentacles (manifestation, financial opportunity, new job) Oooooh. This was the last card I pulled in a deck interview last night with a different deck I purchased yesterday. So the tab was open already and I was somewhat familiar with this card. Did the Pokedeck know? Is it j...