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Day 66: I forgive everyone who has ever caused me pain or harm

Intention of the day: It's time to let go of the grudges from childhood

Morning writing: I was actually thinking about this topic of this lesson the other day when I was thinking about forgiveness. I had some 'bff's in high school that betrayed me and I went through a very hard time and have had trust issues with women for many years as a result. But I'm still 'friends on facebook' with these people even though we are not friends. It's time to just let go of the grudge and move along. What does it matter? The past can't be undone, and I learned what I learned from it... some of the trust issues I have to un-learn but that's an experience too. "How much longer am I going to pollute myself with this grievance?" is asked in today's lesson. I think that's a good reason to let go of childhood grudges. The resentment is negativity that I don't want. I'm running late so I will have to meditate on this on my train ride.

Tarot Reading:

I asked for one card to guide my day.

XVIII The Moon (illusion, fear, anxiety, insecurity, subconscious)

Noo! What? Why? I know I have anxiety. Why is this card back?

VIII Strength (strength, courage, patience, control, compassion)

Bah. OK I will continue to stay strong. I will try NOT to have anxiety today. Grr.
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